touched

Beautiful Saviour

Jesus, Beautiful Saviour,
God of all Majesty,
Risen king,
Lamb of God,
Holy and righteous,
Blessed redeemer,
Bright morning star

All the heavens shout your praise,
All creation bow to worship You

How wonderful, how beautiful,
Name above every name, exalted high
How wonderful, how beautiful,
Jesus your name, name above every name, Jesus

I will sing forever, Jesus I love you, Jesus I love you
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I am so happy to be a Child of God! I am so thankful that He's slowly revealing His words to me. Ultimately... I'm touched by His glory and grace!

I feel so happy recently, I don't know why! I feel so easily contented! haha! oh wells!

Anyways, I am so happy for Jacq!! Talking to her made me relive my past. About how gloomy my darkest days felt and how uncertain I was when I was going through my journey of recovery.

I used to think it was a competition. A race. I wanted to be the BEST patient. I came to support group in my nicest dress to SHOW others how well I am... I talked to everyone I saw in clinic just to PROVE that I was well...I didnt know what Evelyn meant when she said "Focus on yourself!" but now I do. After so long...But I'm glad I finally did. Life used to be so tiring. It was like a battle everyday, one which you feel you can never conquer. Days and days of tears and self-indulgence, wallowing in nothing but self-pity. Thinking back, I just feel so ashamed of myself. Imagine the amount of time I have wasted, the amount of lies I have told, the amount of tears I have caused the people around me to shed. All these sins were enough to send me to Hell.

Sighs, its certainly a miracle to be where I am now. And I have no one else to thank but God... for his glory and mercy upon me.