Sunday, June 7, 2009

On the Greyhound Bus to Toronto

Just finished my 3day trip in Toronto. Loved it! On the bus now going to the Niagara falls now! bout half an hour more before we reach!

Anyways, just some updates! I just watched my FIRST STANDUP COMEDY yesterday! its super funny! a little vulgar though. I didnt really get every single joke but its certainly an experience. Its a pity singapore doesnt have such stuff! The wit and spontaneity of the comedians impressed me! But what shocked me even more.... was how Canadians were so liberal... and troubled. HAHA.... jokes made out of their marriage/affair/what nots life! And they are definitely not afraid to reveal anything which will be condemned by the Singaporean/Asian society. While munching on my fries, I suddenly felt glad to be living in a much more peaceful and simple country. Maybe its just my social circle! makes me feel really innocent and UN-complicated. Which is a good thing i guess (: Oh that was the last item on Hawrer's Must-do-list! So, GREAT! satisfied!

Anyways, I havent been really faithful on my quiet time recently. Haven't been spending sufficient time with God. yea, i better do something about it. Busy-ness and fatigue are no excuses... Speaking of which, during quiet time yesterday, I asked God... about the level of my emotional independence. Somehow I know... only Him alone can provide the kind/amount of love I really want. But yesterday... I realise... no matter what, though nothing can compare to God's love for me, I still yearn for affection. and... it was then that I realise.... i kinda misunderstood the real meaning of God's love for myself. His love is definitely all-encompassing because He loves us wholeheartedly... but in the very same way... He wants us to receive and have the love from all around us as well. To put it simply... having God's love is simply not enough.. haha! oh wells. im starting to speak incoherently... maybe i'll return to this topic again.. when I've really thought through it properly...

Friday, June 5, 2009

Toronto!

So.... its my third day of independence now! things are going really well. I am happy and thankful to be here. loving the weather!

Anyways, on my plane ride from Singapore to HK(transit), I was reminded of Y Camp! As i wore the earphones over my head, it suddenly dawned upon me that all these would not have been possible without the MINDS people! It makes me feel really sad that these ID people are doing their part for the very society which has looked down upon them and despised them! Speak of a gracious society. Sigh. But I wore the headphones with pride and smiled to myself as memories from Y Camp start flooding into my head....

Anyways, I really thank God for bringing me safely from Singapore to New York and from NY to Toronto. Guanghui and Zhiyang were like angels sent from heaven, here to protect and help Iris and myself. Without them, I really would have been at a loss when I met with problems filling up my US customs declaration form. What Guanghui said really touched me! Being laden with guilt and all for delaying the rest, I apologised to all 3 of them... And Guang hui said, "No worries, that's what we are here for." WOW! Thank you God, its certainly your blessings to have brought such wonderful people to me! It's really comforting to have people around to watch out for you, to take care of you... and people just being there when you need them. As I look back , many people have played that role in the different phases of my life! I'm forever lamenting and grumbling about how I've always wanted an older brother... God hears my yearnings and desires. He sends amazing people into my life to fill up this very "gap" in my emotional life! Everything seems planned for all of a sudden! ((((:

New York and Toronto's pretty similar. Suited more for the shopping kings and queens though.. definitely not for a poor, un-shopaholic girl like myself! But nonetheless, its definitely an experience. Though i would very much prefer the suburbs and countryside.. oh wells. contented with what I have! (:

Anyways, Hawrer is sick... really prays that he gets better! it sure sucks to be sick while on a holiday! Really can't do without him man! ahha... sometimes i think i take him for granted, just depend on him for all directions! HAHA! he's definitely another blessing sent from heaven... another angel here to look after me! really cant thank him enough! very accomodating and helpful (: HAPPY! trish is meeting WONDERFUL people in her life!